Knowing your worth

How do you know?
What defines how much you're worth?
Who defines?

Have you ever had one of those moments where you start to ask yourself why things happen the way that they do? Have you ever questioned the outcome and then ponder on what you could have changed if you have the chance or if you thought it through properly or if you could just do it again?  I do.  All the time.

Actually I've had a whole lifetime of moments that I wish I could re-do. Those  back-the-heck-up-and-let's-do-that-again moments.  But they weren't good moments. Heck no! They're either embarrassing, hurtful, shameful or just plain phuck ups! The moments I've regretted and want to do again to put it right.  The trials in my life. 

Are these what define me? No but they do have a place in there somewhere - in my whole make-up.  We should learn from our mistakes but the more 'experienced' I become in life, the more I think that the mistakes could have been avoided had I planned it better - had I foresaw the outcome or thought through the situation more.  Oh heck! If I had just over-analysed the situation lol.  No wonder I make a mess sometimes because that's exactly what happened.

I know what defines me.

It's me.